So how do I start this? Today October 18th is Larry’s birthday. He would be 55. He is celebrating in heaven. We are here. Missing him. With all of our hearts. We were not sure how to celebrate this day? There is no guide book on how we are supposed to do it.
The boys and I have gone back in forth on what to do? How do you celebrate without the guest of honor’ the one you love, present? How do we navigate this oh so hard road of celebrating his life while we are missing him so deeply. Celebrations are happy and uplifting. With fun and laughter. I’m not sure? I’ve never done this before. I wish I didn’t have to do it now. I wish my boys didn’t have to celebrate their dad without him! I wish he were here. But no amount of wishing will change our circumstances…this journey we are on. It’s a long road that seems to have no end.
One thing I do know is that I want to celebrate. I want Larry to be remembered. Always in all ways. I want his memory to live on in the boy’s lives and my life. I want him to be remembered for the wonderful dad he was. For the great husband he was. For the friend he was. It’s important we don’t forget. Ever. So today we are going to celebrate his life. With a visit to the cemetery, with flowers and maybe a balloon or two. With a meal out. With laughter and tears. With sadness. With JOY. With memories that will live on in us. With the hope that someday when Jesus comes there will be no more tears and no more sadness. Only JOY and LOVE.
We love you Larry.
Each and every day. Always….we will never forget. Ever.